this is my re-introduction

my name is madison and there's only one person in this world that can say it that way without it sounding out of place
      and it's not either one of my parents
i've never been good at saying my own name
      and i've gone my whole life by the condensed version
i've never loved being called by my actual given name
      until now
           because it's said by him


my name is madison and i haven't sat down to read a book in way too long
      and i hate that
it's taken way too long for the earth to warm up again
      and i hate that
having donald trump or hillary clinton take over as president is an actual possibility
      and i hate that
i don't live near a beach
      and i hate that
the construction outside my bedroom window starts every morning at 7am
      and i hate that
i haven't been very good at looking at the bright side lately
      and i hate that


my name is madison
      i love listening to and singing songs
i love playing board games and card games
      i love being in rooms with lots of windows
i love sunflowers and movies and love and love movies and stars and him

my name is madison
       and when i grow up i'm not going to grow up and i'm going to be happy