The arrow that is last shot, cannot be split by another arrow
Standing alone in its uniqueness
Well baby it's been heading right for us for awhile now and, trust me, it's not the last arrow
Our hearts are seeping through the cracks in the sidewalk, like wild flowers,
Like wild children,
Like wild hearts
Sunlight is seeping through the windows to our souls and it's dyed red
Like the blood that's coursing through our veins
The same blood that's been there since sixth grade,
Friends are said to be two peas in a pod,
Or two feathers of the same bird, but baby peas get separated into different cans and are put on Different shelves,
And birds shed!
We were at a tender age of eleven and twelve, finding home on the playground beneath a canopy of laughs, blue and green bandannas, and scraped knee caps
Before we even knew, we were at the tender age of sixteen and seventeen and our home was swept away in the wind
Our peas were separated, and our feathers were shed
Our home became a compass and when the dials stopped spinning
You and I were pointing different directions
Birds weren't meant to withstand the cold for too long, and neither was I
I migrated upward, further from the ground, and closer to the stars
And closer to a home more fit
For my new feathers
Welcome to My Soul
Music
Friday, March 18, 2016
Friday, March 11, 2016
M.A.S.H.
when i was a little girl
i thought that m.a.s.h. really decided my fate
and no matter how many times i would play
it never ended up the way i wanted
but if you know what you want,
then why leave it all up to chance?
i thought that m.a.s.h. really decided my fate
and no matter how many times i would play
it never ended up the way i wanted
but if you know what you want,
then why leave it all up to chance?
l o v e
love is blood
it's runny and red and thicker than water
it's got fingertips like ice and a bonfire hot enough to melt alaska
love is black and white
and love is every shade of gray
love is a flashlight
and love is the one who turned off the lights in the first place
it's the confusion and the clarity
the ocean and the grain of sand
it's both the pain and the relief
it's the unimaginable and the unduplicable
it's indescribable by science
and I think that's why we call it magic
the only thing i've always known i wanted out of life is
this flashlight,
this confusion,
this pain,
this relief,
this magic
love is too big
love is too small
and i promise you
that love doesn't fit in a box
this is my re-introduction
my name is madison and there's only one person in this world that can say it that way without it sounding out of place
and it's not either one of my parents
i've never been good at saying my own name
and i've gone my whole life by the condensed version
i've never loved being called by my actual given name
until now
because it's said by him
my name is madison and i haven't sat down to read a book in way too long
and i hate that
it's taken way too long for the earth to warm up again
and i hate that
having donald trump or hillary clinton take over as president is an actual possibility
and i hate that
i don't live near a beach
and i hate that
the construction outside my bedroom window starts every morning at 7am
and i hate that
i haven't been very good at looking at the bright side lately
and i hate that
my name is madison
i love listening to and singing songs
i love playing board games and card games
i love being in rooms with lots of windows
i love sunflowers and movies and love and love movies and stars and him
my name is madison
and when i grow up i'm not going to grow up and i'm going to be happy
and it's not either one of my parents
i've never been good at saying my own name
and i've gone my whole life by the condensed version
i've never loved being called by my actual given name
until now
because it's said by him
my name is madison and i haven't sat down to read a book in way too long
and i hate that
it's taken way too long for the earth to warm up again
and i hate that
having donald trump or hillary clinton take over as president is an actual possibility
and i hate that
i don't live near a beach
and i hate that
the construction outside my bedroom window starts every morning at 7am
and i hate that
i haven't been very good at looking at the bright side lately
and i hate that
my name is madison
i love listening to and singing songs
i love playing board games and card games
i love being in rooms with lots of windows
i love sunflowers and movies and love and love movies and stars and him
my name is madison
and when i grow up i'm not going to grow up and i'm going to be happy
Thursday, March 10, 2016
paris syndrome
Paris was supposed to know me.
Paris was supposed to tell me who I am so don't have to go on wondering.
But the first thing paris said to me when I stepped off the plane was:
"Madi, you know it doesn't work that way."
what i had forgotten was Paris isn't just a one stop destination.
Paris is a stop along the way on a journey of discovery.
It's a place where bits and pieces of myself are hidden all over the city, and to find them, I can't just stay put. I have to go exploring.
I have to go to all of the small bakeries, all the museums and monuments, and all the secret cafe's that sell the best drinks and pastries.
Paris knew me better than I knew myself,
but I had no idea.
I had never met myself until Paris painted me on the crouded streets of the city,
a pathway to a whole museum full ofartwork masterpieces!
Famous artist's work plastered all over the walls.
And each of them was a part of me,
never even seen by my eyes before.
I was on my journey of discovery.
I've always envied people who have come back from Paris.
So sure of themselves, knowing who they are.
I've always wanted that.
To go to paris.
To find myself.
But now that i'm here,
it doesn't seem real.
I dont know myself like I thought I would,
and i dont know how to fix that.
Maybe i should spend more time alone with myself,
or take myself out on dates.
It's just, I think I deserve to know the person i'm going to spend the rest of my life with.
Paris was supposed to tell me who I am so don't have to go on wondering.
But the first thing paris said to me when I stepped off the plane was:
"Madi, you know it doesn't work that way."
what i had forgotten was Paris isn't just a one stop destination.
Paris is a stop along the way on a journey of discovery.
It's a place where bits and pieces of myself are hidden all over the city, and to find them, I can't just stay put. I have to go exploring.
I have to go to all of the small bakeries, all the museums and monuments, and all the secret cafe's that sell the best drinks and pastries.
Paris knew me better than I knew myself,
but I had no idea.
I had never met myself until Paris painted me on the crouded streets of the city,
a pathway to a whole museum full of
Famous artist's work plastered all over the walls.
And each of them was a part of me,
never even seen by my eyes before.
I was on my journey of discovery.
I've always envied people who have come back from Paris.
So sure of themselves, knowing who they are.
I've always wanted that.
To go to paris.
To find myself.
But now that i'm here,
it doesn't seem real.
I dont know myself like I thought I would,
and i dont know how to fix that.
Maybe i should spend more time alone with myself,
or take myself out on dates.
It's just, I think I deserve to know the person i'm going to spend the rest of my life with.
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